There was a time in my life where trying to imagine a bigger vision would have upset me or even made me angry. It is not that I didn’t believe better things were possible, I just didn’t believe they were possible for me.
I was too busy struggling through a job, trying to raise kids and keeping the spark going in my relationship to imagine life being “easy” or having “a purpose”. I was just trying to keep my head above water and get through another day.
And then it happened, I hit rock bottom last year. A place I never thought I would be and definitely a place that came by complete surprise. I couldn’t do my job without second guessing myself, I had lost all my confidence. I was fighting with everyone in my life, losing patience with my kids and my new marriage felt like it was over before it had a chance to begin. I was losing everything I cared about. I had lost me.
I kept asking myself what was wrong with me. I was always doing the right things, trying my hardest so why didn’t life work out the way I wanted.
And then one day while sitting at home alone in the dark tears streaming down my cheeks, thinking maybe everyones life would be better without me, it just hit me. The solution came by surprise, as out of the blue as the cause! It wasn’t everything else around me that had to change… it was ME! I had to become the person I was happy with in order to make everything else in my life work. I had to make that life I had been looking for for so long and stop expecting it to come to me.
So I made a decision that life was no longer just going to happen to me. I was going to get what I was worth out of life. No more settling for less or struggling and letting opportunity pass me by. I was committed to taking conscious action. I invested in myself.
I signed up for and watched every free webinar on anything from changing your mindset to how to run a business that I could find. I started thinking about what business I could start, what I could make a go of. I took a course in personal development even though I didn’t have the money. I made my life about my own definition of success.
Was my life now easy? I’m not gonna lie, sometimes it was. But I’ve wanted to give up, go back to blaming everyone and everything else in my life instead of taking ownership and responsibility for my life. It was my own self doubt and negative thoughts that made me think I wasn’t cut out for this.
But with the support of a wonderful husband, the course I had enrolled on and having read enough books on how to change my mindset I developed daily success habits and slowly noticed my life shifting step by step in the right direction. I was finally on the right track – on my terms.
Everyone has noticed the shift in my behaviour, the changes that have been so clear in my life. I’m still on this path of discovery and see it going from strength to strength. I’d love for you to join me.
Until next time…
Angela Harris 